With Franklin being nearly six months old now, I hear all too often how I need to “cherish every minute, it goes by fast!”<\/p>\n
And while that may be true in many instances, it just makes me think back to when our first-born was a baby and how the days were looooooong and hard. And you know what, I didn’t cherish every minute.<\/p>\n
Our first-born’s infancy was difficult. There was a lot of baby crying. Therefore, there was mama crying, too. There was a lot of trying everything we as parents could think to do in order to console our baby. We spent numerous hours in the dark bathroom wasting gallons and gallons of water because our baby found the sound soothing. We spent countless minutes in the cool night air because the shock of the cold was enough distraction for a little while. We logged miles and miles of walking around our little home holding our baby like a football\u00a0because that was the only way she wanted to be held.<\/p>\n
And we didn’t dare sit down.<\/p>\n
There were days when I had to give myself little pep talks; “Just get through the day. \u00a0Just. get. through. this. day. One day at a time.” And then the day would end, and I would tell myself the same thing the next day, too.<\/p>\n
Infancy isn’t always full of smiley, giggling, cuddly, SLEEPING babies. It’s sometimes full of inconsolable, teething, shrieking babies that need every ounce of of one’s attention. It can be downright exhausting.<\/p>\n
And the guilt that comes along with it all can be just as daunting. The guilt over not being able to console your baby. The guilt over not basking in all that is motherhood. Or the guilt over wanting a break.<\/p>\n
I just want to tell you, mama, that it’s okay. It’s okay not to love every second of motherhood. It’s okay not to love every day, either. Heck, it’s okay not to love every stage. It’s also okay to wish days would go by faster, and it’s okay to want, or even need, a break.<\/p>\n
Am I thankful for each one of my babies? Beyond comprehension. Without a doubt.<\/p>\n
But no one likes to be screamed at, or to work so hard at trying to solve a problem that only time will solve. Or to attempt functioning off only a few hours of sleep. So it’s okay to not cherish every second.<\/p>\n
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